I want to be a man!

I want to be a man so that when I am single I am celebrated

so that when I have skin showing I am not labelled a whore

so that I can wear lipstick without asking for it

so that I can choose to not have kids

so that I can get those higher positions

so that I don’t have to work extra hard to prove myself

so that my intelligence is not fetishized

so that my opinions are respected

so that I can walk the night without fear

so that my NO means NO

so that when I am alone I am not grabbed

so that when I am alone I am not scratched and punched

so that when I am alone I don’t have to fight to be in the same space

so that I am more than my body

so that my body can belong to me

so that…

But,

I am a woman,

I am a woman

Are you listening? I am a woman

I am a woman who has rage

Who has rage

Who will not ask for respect

Who will not ask to be protected

Who will not fit your labels

I am a woman

I am a proud woman

I am a woman with rage

If I was a man,

If I was a man, I would shoot myself

I would shoot myself for being a man

I would shoot myself and ask my body to be chopped into pieces

I would ask those pieces to be burnt

I would ask the burnt pieces to be hanged

I want to be a human

I am a woman

I am a proud woman

I am a woman with rage